Monday, November 2, 2009
Hope
Words cannot express how much i want to break free from this vicious cycle right now. Sometimes i wonder why we have to conform to society's standards - almost in everything in life when we compete for top positions just so we can have things go our way in the forseeable future. But this view admittedly, is biased. It would be hard not to be, especially since i am part of this struggle right now, where i feel all my hopes are based on this one performance, that spans for a mere 2 weeks. My whole life, my dreams all depend on my efforts now, and i have no choice but to fight. There are times i feel so discouraged, and moments where my future seems bleak and devoid of any hope.But one thing i have learnt, especially during my O levels, is faith. Faith that everything will be okay in the end. Faith that even when things are not going my way, they will in time. And in 'living life', I learnt not to use the word 'hope' in such a flippant manner - that is, we should not ever say that 'we hope things are going to be okay'. Using the word in such a way associates 'hope' with a hint of uncertainty and doubt. 'Hope' should be used in a way such that we KNOW things are going to be okay. And so, right here and now, i entrust my A Levels to you Lord, whatever the outcome. I place in your hands all my aspirations and my whole life, and I know things are going to be okay because you are faithful and merciful. I won't worry what the future holds, because I know you know.
Posted by My Billet-doux at 3:33 PM
Friday, June 5, 2009
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No more blogging for me. Bye to blogs for good.Posted by My Billet-doux at 8:59 AM
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
FOR JASMINE
Posted by My Billet-doux at 10:25 PM
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Happy 20th Wedding Anniversary!
Cool! 20 years(:
Thank you for everything!
Posted by My Billet-doux at 10:53 PM
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Time flies.Tired. SOV tomorrow. To be frank, can't wait till it ends. 7 years of choral singing. Just about enough. Might miss it, but I definitely ain't joining any choir any time soon. But that said, I totally want to end my choir journey with a blast. Really hope tomorrow we'll all do great. After tomorrow it'll be time to get my priorities right. I have got to shift my focus. All hindrances, obstacles, whatever, outta the way. I'm past wasting my time on trivial, superficial crap anymore. Life is too short to care about what we don't have, but rather, we should appreciate what we do have. Can't wait. Can't wait.
Posted by My Billet-doux at 10:41 PM
Saturday, April 25, 2009
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Today when Samantha asked me how life is, it dawned upon me - just how tired I am. Mentally, Physically, Emotionally - Whatever. It's just that there is a limit to my patience, to people who have no consideration, to situations which are so trying. And yeh, in a way I'm really upset that my parents don't let me go for the choir trip in June. Or I was. Because come to think of it, they are right. My throat - it's worsening everyday, and since Christmas carolling. 5 months. Hey, it's no joke. It's not like lately there's a lot of phlegm, it's just cough. Dry cough. And the last thing I wanna do is remove my tonsils. But I really wanted to go because it would definitely be my last time singing with the choir, or any other choir for that matter. Guess I'll just have to make do with SOV being my last event with VJChoir. However, I really do thank God for sustaining me all this while. To be honest, I cannot believe that now I'm still able to sing since my right tonsil is inflamed (the doctor described it as a cobblestone). Anyway, lately it's all been like this: ---------------------------- for me. Yes. One straight old boring line. Mundane? Guess so. But I would definitely say, an improvement compared to last year. At least now I have a clearer goal.But today one thing really brightened up my day:
DEBORAHGUOWEIXIAN
i'm really glad i have you in class to be my moral compass and to guide me through everything. it's really awesome tht you will always have cute stickers that i can steal from you to stick on my lecture notes. haha. somehow for this CTs i couldnt really find the motivation to get started but seeing your drive makes me feel like i should do it too, since we're in almost every single thing together. sometimes its really pretty amazing if you actually take a step back and think. like how we have a sister of the same age and how we both take our piano exam and how we have cca on the same days and how we always think of the same thing. i seriously think you're my doppel ganger! haha. anw, thanks for LIGHTING up my life and must continue to motivate me for CT2 and prelims and As! & even though you dont like to hear it but i have to say it. i love you. haha!
Lol I cannot believe I didn't see this earlier la.
JASMINETANHUIMIN!!!!!!!!
I too, am super blessed to have you in the class. Without you, I don't think I would be able to keep up with what is happening in class now, get food in between lessons when my eyes just wna close, laugh like a mad woman, find my very own doppel ganger and confide. YOU should totally motivate me too and continue to be my beacon and beloved blue friend! It's not merely 'pretty amazing' but rather A-MA-ZING how you and I could be so alike yet have differences which make us individuals and not clones. It's funny cos when I talk to you, I feel like I'm talking to my other half because I sorta know the answers you are gonna tell me but I still ask you questions because the answers(which I sorta know you will give) are an affirmation. Lol I really hope you get what I mean la. Thank you thank you thank you for everything, like seriously. You totally brightened up my day with this ancient post of yours. So sorry I didnt get to see it sooner!
PS: I'm not from a girl's school!!!!!
Posted by My Billet-doux at 1:56 AM
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
/We will run, altogether our hearts aflame.
At the crossroads.
Right looks promising, but I can't choose on my own.
I only realised how much I miss night runs after running tonight.
The race to the finish begins.
14/4 - 14/11.
7 months. Consistency, Determination, Perserverance.
It shall be done.
1Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. 2Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
Hebrews 12:1-2
Posted by My Billet-doux at 11:17 PM
Sunday, April 12, 2009
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I miss you like crazy.Posted by My Billet-doux at 11:19 PM
Friday, April 10, 2009
you know, this blog is getting useless. I can't portray those feelings with preciseness and all those reflected tend to be on the superficial side. ARGH.Posted by My Billet-doux at 8:03 PM
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
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havent blogged in ages. And aiyah March holidays passed way too quickly.I'm still tired, and there seems to be this burden I've been carrying lately. I cannot seem to point out just what it is, but it's been there since Idontknowwhen. Thus, it is sorta making me wonder if I haven't been seeking You enough, if I havent really been listening out. I feel this restlessness about me, and life is beginning to become mundane and almost too routine. Sometimes I wna reach You at a higher level, but there seems to be this barrier, and I feel empty - like a shell. Help me, Lord, oh help me.
During March Hols went to watch like two movies. Marley and Me AND Push.
Marley and Me really made me think of my dog, Bingo. He's such a darling and I'd be really sad if anything untoward happened to him. So yes, of course the movie made me cry, especially towards the end. But I definitely feel the plot was really draggy and could have been shortened. The 2 hour movie really seemed as if it were 3 hours instead.
Yeh anyway I just bathed Bingo this Sunday(: And now he smells all nice, except for his doggy breath:X
Some pics I took with my new Camera that I got from the IT fair:
BINGO BATHES!
Before he bathed.
Going to bathe!
All soapy and wet!
Getting dried!
He likes to shape his own Schnauzer beard!
Slightly drier:)
Sun bathing!
Waiting to be hair-dried!
Haha slightly irritated there (he hates being hair-dried).
Waiting to be combed!
Fur being combed by yours truly:)
All done and doing the Sir Stamford Raffles pose:D
See Bingo ish sh0 cutezxs.
Oh yeh and Push was a cool movie. Totally hope Push II will come out.
Yeh that's all for now folks. May update abt choir camp soon.
Toodles(:
why not take a crazy chance.